今天无意中看到了杨琨琨的QQ Zone, 他说起了他梦见他家人的事，一下便令我回想起这一段时间做的一个梦，也是梦到了一个人。

 

 

  大概是在考试还没有结束的时候，我做了一个恶梦，其实也不能说是噩梦，总是我是半夜被惊醒了。缘故就是我梦到了我已故的一个小学的校友，他是在小学升初中的那个暑假，不幸溺水身亡的。我知道他的名字，但其实并不知道他长得什么样子，反正我在梦中的时候就知道是他。事情的经过我也记不太清楚了，大家都知道的，做梦，基本是没有什么逻辑，故事就这样发生了。

 

  事情发生在一次同学聚会，是和高中的同学，中间还有我高中很好的朋友，大家在一块玩着，聊天，吃饭，突然间，我就发现了他，他就在人群中。我觉得很奇怪，为什么就我一个人注意到他了呢，别的人都认识他么？为什么他也会出现在我的高中同学聚会上？他话很少，或者说，基本上不说话，只是微笑的看每一个人，跟着我们到处走，到处玩，走过街道，经过荷塘。我其实很害怕，因为我知道，他，其实是一个已故者，而且，这么多人中间，就只有我一个人知道他是一个已故着，其他人似乎都把他当作了高中的同学，当时在梦中的我真是不寒而栗。但是，当时我很沉稳，把这件事告诉了我那个最好的朋友，我说，我们当中有一个人不是活着的，我的朋友笑着说，不可能吧。

 

  不可能，没人会相信我。我努力克制着内心的恐惧与紧张，他也一直就这么跟着我们，或者说，只是跟着我，转眼间，我就回到了自己的家，而且，他也跟着我进了我的家。我观察了我的家人，他们对于他的到来，没有觉得惊讶。

 

  家里人好像和他很熟，对于这样一个陌生人的进入居然视而不见，除非是和他烂熟了。我像是被耍了，无助，恐惧。我迫不及待了把我妈妈拉到房间里，我记得，是拉倒了我妈妈的卧室，趁他正在我爷爷奶奶的卧室看电视而没有察觉的时候。我对我妈妈说，他！你没有看见吗？他！不是一个活人！他明明已经过世了！（其实当时我用的不是“过世”这个词，而是那个一个表达同样意思的字）你不知道吗？？我都快疯了，我妈说，我妈笑着说，不可能吧？

 

  不可能？可我明明就看见了，为什么你们都看不见！？

 

  就在这个时候，他出现了，在我没有察觉的时候，他已站在了我妈的身后，我出不出话，看着他，他慢慢地抬起头。。。

 

然后，我就醒了，天还没亮，我的室友正在酣睡。窗外的路灯，被笼罩着朦胧的水汽，我背上都是汗水，醒来后，蜷缩成了一团，继续试着入睡，尽管心里久久不能平静，看了好几眼我的室友，平复心情。

 

 

  我为什么会做这个梦？我后来想了想，应该和我当天看了几张高中同学的照片有关吧，可为什么会梦见已故的校友，无法解释。我的那位校友溺水身亡的这整件事情，在发生的当时，我似乎没有什么感觉，只是记得大人们的叹息，和那些不要私自下河游泳的叮嘱。

 

  我不由得又回想到2005年的时候，也就是我高中毕业的那年，我妈很紧张地告诉我，我今年犯水。我要申明，我妈并不是个迷信的人，只是她太紧张我那年的高考，于是去算了一下命理之类的东西。当时，我一笑置之。

 

  回到那个同学的事情，总之，我是没什么感觉，后来我有个初中同学以前小学是和他一个班的，我去我那个初中同学家的时候，发现了他们搬上的小学毕业照，上面有个人的脸被涂黑了，我问他是谁，那个初中同学就告诉我，是那个溺水身亡的同学，他不想把他的脸留在相片上，不吉利。其实，我一直想知道他长什么样子，那次是我最接近他相貌的时候。

 

  在后来，我听邻里议论说他的父母亲又生了一个，我家人当时还感叹，怎么能这么快，他们感叹的是：伤口的平复怎么能这么快，难道这么快就能不再伤心了吗。那段时间，我也一直都不怎么有感觉。

 

  我同时也回想起了高中的一件事，也是一个校友，当时我应该是高三，他是高一，在一个打雷闪电的晚上，他被闪电击中而身亡。这件事在当时影响很大，他的家长以及家长单位的人都来学校示威，痛斥学校的疏于管理。我印象最深的是，周围人议论的一句话：听说他的父母也已经离婚了呀，这下，唉，真是一断就连唯一的根都断了。

 

  我周围里我很近的同龄人的逝去，在这一刻，无比地令我的内心，感到痛楚和惋惜。这些关于死亡的情，就发生在我的身边，而且是和我一般大的人。在这一刻我觉得，死亡，不是值得害怕的事，大家都有体验的机会，无需期待，无需害怕，与此同时，得珍惜周围的事物，珍惜自己。当然，绝不是像林黛玉那样，为一朵花的凋谢而怎样怎样的，而要，做好自己的本分，做好有意义的实事。

 

 

  我写这些东西，反正就是想记录一下自己的心情，我写第一个章节“梦”的时候，心跳的速度都是很快的，再多一遍多这个梦的回想，都会令我不舒坦。后来想到的很多东西，都是一边写的时候想到的，思考，真是奇妙的东西。这所有的文字，都是缘于那个梦。我想，大家都要好好的，那样最好了。

p.s. 新贴上的美女图，是为了缓解我的写完此文的精神压力而贴上的。对了，她是叫做Maki Horikita的日本女影星，谢谢你给我使用你的肖像权。

后记

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When all of this  happened, it has been impossible for me to go back, hence, I crept forward without rising up my head.

Actually the road is quite short in terms of length, maybe just 30 meters, however, I never imagined before how tough it would be in such a situation, fists poured on my shoulders, back, legs, knee, and everywhere else. One more meter, more painful it would be. Mean time, it was becoming shorter, right?

More painful, earlier to finish all of this. Keeping on thinking like this, I managed to overcome all of the hurt and finally got to the destination.

Great, isn't it?

People around us are those who all successfully overcome all of this, they smiled, embracing the next victim. also the survivor in the future.

People who come to last, people who are memorized.

 

Pure water goes through the spring, which belongs to the sea at last, leaving you the aroma of dream.

 

 

 

 

  长久以来，我以为我这个学期，这一年，这四年，都不会有室友了，那意味着，我的上任室友-行璨，将成为我第一个室友，也是最后一个室友，更是唯一的室友，

也意味着，我，有可能过单人间的生活！ 那是多么激动人心的事情啊！同时，又是令我矛盾的，单人房，意味着孤独的生活，一个人看电影，一个人吃饭，一个人睡觉，一个人。。。没有人与你分享，没有人和你吵架，没有人。。。那又是多么的不幸！

  我怀着矛盾与忐忑的心情，过了一天又一天，直到今天，他，出现在了我的视野。

  第一次见到他，是在中午，我那时还在睡梦之中，突然间，有人开门进来，还没等我来得及紧张与期待，他已出现了，他就这么出现了。他，就这么站在那里，他，正在我的眼前！他，没错，就是我的室友，我的最新一任的室友！

  他的出现，结束了我的单人房梦，但与此同时，却给了我一个新的开始。

 

  他，来自越南，身材修长匀称，眉清目秀；

  他，皮肤白皙，双目炯炯有神；

  他，声音附有磁性，礼貌，有修养；

  他，性格开朗，热情，经常投我以迷人的微笑。

 

  短短的不到一个小时的相处，就给我留下了这么些印象。

  从今以后，他，就将成为与我共度一年的男人。

  他，是的，就是他。

  以后的篇章，这份感情，等着我们两个人，携手去谱写，携手去创造。

  明天的明天，我们将会发生什么故事呢？

 

  P.S. 请原谅我写得这么煽情。

         哇哈哈~~

 

 

 

It should have been so wonderful that our SRC Party gathered again yesterday, now I just would like to skip the content of our talk as it had something to do with Liu Wei's private loving story....

So, now let me just talk about what happened after the gathering. Zhang Lei, who is a cissy guy, suddenly became obsessive with a scaring movie called "Dark Water". In this situation, he strongly recommended Pengfei to go to my room to watch the movie together, the time then was about 12:00pm.

For me, actually that is ok, Pengfei seemed also quite interested about that famous scaring movie. Maybe he was not only cheated by the movie, but also by Zhang Lei's instigation or some deceptive words, and that is also what I maintained the most important reason for we three be cheated at the same time. Of course, these are just what I think after the silly experience.

Just go on. Since we three were all quite passionate then, the case was decided almost immediately.

On our way to rooms, we could not help talking about the scaring movies, including how the atmosphere is made in the scaring movies, something about the ghost and so on. Any way, they were something not that relaxed to be heard. As time goes by, our rooms were nearer and nearer, also the atmosphere was getting more and more tense, Zhang Lei, suddenly burst out, he confessed his afraid of watching this movie!!! His refusal made Fei and I felt quite funny and couldn’t help laughing out! Lei, seemed a brave man, actually can appeared so cissy!!~~??

He could not bear the laughing anymore soon, he reluctantly thought out a reason. He said that Fei and I had seen lots of scared films before while he hadn't seen that for quite a few years, the conclusion came out from his mouth was he might not ready enough to be hit by the movie and could not get sleep in the following weeks.

Is this called a reason? God, even can not seen as a excuse! That is groundless obviously. Can a person absolutely feel relaxed when watching a scaring movie after many times experiences? Or let's say it a kind of power for the scaring movie that can make a first-looking person suffer the pain for weeks...

Zhang Lei, shamed of his groundless principle, after our "disgust" and persuasion finally agreed again to see the film with us again.

Finally we got home. After a quick bath, I shut up my laptop, found the movie, opened it, we three sit together, held more or less a nervous mood, pretended to be relaxed, had a high expectation, began our tour.

Once I have heard such a proverb, it goes like this: you will get disappointment as much as the expectation you have hold before. I have to concede that said it! The alleged famous scaring movie, more like a educational movie which urged us to cherish the mother love and glorify the greatest mother love.

Quite moved by the love atmosphere among the movie, I admitted, unfortunately, it should be called a scaring movie. We three, had been expecting some quite scaring scenes until the end of the movie, all despaired at that moment.

Poor we three guys! Not go to bed until nearly 3am, received a gift of such a rubbish "scaring movie"?!!

 I have no choice but to resign...

 

Today the content was about the interview skills. Before

Before it was given, we were asked to play a stupid game. It is about the teamwork. We were divided into two groups and each side was given three pieces of paper. Te rule is simple, as the trainer said. We were demanded to use the paper to walk through a “river”, which is supposed to be existed, without any parts of our bodies’ touching the ground. At last, we did it in three minutes like this: we ripped the paper into six pieces, and then the strong guys who were having someone on their back walked on the paper to pass the “river”.

 

The trainer still said that was not good enough, that NUS guy, said one of his team did it in thirty seconds. They used the method of throw the paper as it was the “aircraft” to the other side instead of asking a person to carry back. That was good indeed, however I never believe that can be limited within thirty seconds.

 

Then we got down to the business. Interview, seems to be a, eh, cannot say easy, but definitely not as complicated as we imagined. From the beginning to the end, I was really during a lecture, what I mean is that I was like an idiot and was taught something that was beyond my IQ.

 

The whole class also let me think about such a question: what is my prospect mission? In my opinion, it should be like this temporarily:

 

Four yeas later, I get the chance to continue my graduate study, at least get the master degree in U.S. or Europe. After that, go to get a job in a moderate company, that is to say, this company should be neither too big or too small, I can demonstrate myself better and get more chance to anneal myself. Then go to a big firm, like HP, IBM or Starhub, etc. I may get married at around 30.

 

Times finally got to the point of 5pm. Later we came back by taxi as last time. Waiting for the next challenge to come as usual.